more bitter than sweet

i live a miserable life, with a miserable self esteem

it's not like i walk into my favourite subject, thus best possible exam with a negative outlook, i actually thought i'd be okay considering how much work i've done. But i was wrong, i let chance get the better of me.

don't ask me how it went. don't wish me luck.
don't come prancing towards me or anyone with smiles all round assuming that we might have felt just as good as you did after it
make no assumptions
don't make people feel like shit by rubbing your success in their face



make no such mistakes.

I know numbers don't mean anything, but it means a lot to my self esteem

I pray to god, that he'll have me succeed. Give me a wonderful number for my enter, like a 90 or above, so that at least I don't feel so worthless and stupid all the time.